For a majority of my life, I've wanted to be a mom. To know the miracle of pregnancy, the strength of birth, the feel of little arm around my neck, and the sound of tiny feet running through the house.
Being a mother is the greatest accomplishment of my life; it is also the most all-consuming task I've ever undertaken. It's so easy to get lost in it. From the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep, I am Mommy. There is always a need to be met, a meal to be made, a desire to be fulfilled, an owwie that needs tending, a book that needs read (for the trillionth time), a butt that needs wiping, a toy that must be rescued from the couch, another load of laundry to be run.
I'm not complaining by any means; I begged for this life, this privilege, for years. It is who I am, but yet it is still only part of me. It's easy to forget, mothers are still human, individuals, who have (or had) dreams of things OTHER than their kids. For my sake, my partner's sake, and for the sake of my boys, I must remember that I am a person, and treat myself as such in order to not burn out under the "mommy" title. Here is a short list of some of the things that I like to do for myself that aren't mommy-related:
2. Shower/bathe alone
4. Run an errand by myself
5. Paint my nails
6. Have a glass (or two) of an alcoholic beverage
I have dreams, too. Sort of a bucket list, I guess, but things I would like to do, for me and no one else:
1. Learn how to play the cello and the upright bass (two totally different things)
2. Once I learn the bass, start a rockabilly band
3. Learn how to ride a motorcycle
4. Take dance lessons
5. Backpack Europe
6. Pick guitar back up (it's been years)
7. Go back to Japan
Being a mom may be all-consuming, but it is not solely defining of who I am, or what I want out of life.
What are some things you like to do for yourself? What are some dreams you have for yourself (even if you think they're "out there")?
Mama Bear of one Baby Bear, Bean, who both love Papa Bear, and live in a crafty, gluten-free cozy den.